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Disclamer


I'm not here to please.

The Music Girl


Name
SHA
With a passion for dancing
and song-writing,
her aim to unite different music genres
with different languages
exceeds her 23-year-old mind.
23 & is a part of
INNtheBox Production
and
4'Dee Krew.

welcome to my blog
which is full of my
life,emotions,friends,family,AND ,OBSESSION

She Wants


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[Shim Changmin]
[18th Feb 1988]
[my ONE and ONLY PABO]

120gb Ipod Classic
Shabu Shabu
My own Concert
My own Dance School
TVXQ Goodies
Go to Korea
Get Degree
Lose Weight
FishEye Lens
Changmin's nametag
More Money
DVD Player
Drum Set
Guitar
LG Viewty
Hoodie
TVXQ Bonjour Paris Photobook
TVXQ Shine Photobook
Changmin S-cube Shirt
Changmin's Two Hearts/Wild Soul Single
TVXQ Prague Photobook
TVXQ BigEast DVD
TVXQ T Tour DVD
2009 TVXQ Wall Calendar
TVXQ Mirotic Album Version A
TVXQ Mirotic Album Version B
TVXQ Mirotic Album Version C
Changmin's Pendant
Changmin's Chinese Name Earrings
TVXQ Photobook: A Week Holiday-Camping
TVXQ Photobook: A Week Holiday-It's Stylish
Uknow Style Leather Bracelet
Eat Sapporo Ramen
Go Amusement Park
Stay in a Hotel Suite
Eat MACnCHEESE
Wilde the Movie DVD
Velvet Goldmine DVD
Diana+ Edelweiss Edition Lomo
TVXQ The Secret Code Album [2CD+DVD]
Penguin Converse Shoe
ARASHI Around Asia 2008 in Tokyo Dvd
* Yellow Tears * Kiiroi Namida DVD Arashi
Arashi Ninomiya Kazunari Nino Photobook

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Thursday, June 07, 2007

Baka and her Pabo;

This has always been common knowledge...But now it's super duper uber official.

I LOVE SHIM CHANGMIN.

Changmin oppa, saranghaeyo!!

I was watching one of TVXQ banjun drama again. The title is called "Unforgettable Love". It's the White Day episode. It sucks cause only Yunho has a "date" *haha. Blind date my arse, that's so not true. Hehe.* But it's okay... The TVXQ boys looked like girls during sleepovers. You know how girl friends look like when they're sitting on beds, hugging pillows, talking about crushes and first loves? Haha, not like I've ever had that experience.

Anyway, yes, they were talking about the most unforgettable girls in their lives. Junsu had a stalker/girlfriend, Yoochun had a headstrong girlfriend who had a female admirer, Jae Joong had a girlfriend who was a psychic and Changmin had a tragic first love with a girl who was terminally ill. She died right beside him.

The "banjun" twist? Changmin's story wasn't real though. He hasn't even had his first girlfriend before. I'm about to change that, though. HAHA.

Kidding aside...I doubt all of their stories were real though. Jae Joong with a freaky psychic girl? Are you kidding me?! And I can't imagine Yoochun going out with a tomboyish girl. That's so unlike Yoochun. He likes sophisticated girls, like those girls who wear jeans with heels and fancy tops. The ones that have long sleeves and bare shoulders. Stuff like that. As for Junsu...he's had only 2 girlfriends, and I doubt they ever became TVXQ stalkers. Changmin's is, well, a figment of someone else creative imagination. Haha.

Okay, let me spazz about Changmin now!

OMFG!! I LOVE CHANGMIN!!

Seriously...about a minute into Changmin's story, I was bawling already. I don't know why, I never expect to cry that much. Maybe because Changmin's truly the epitome of the perfect boyfriend *if there is one* and I can't imagine just how cruel it'd be if he really fell in love like that, just to lose it so quickly and painfully. How freaking cruel is that?

Changmin deserves to be happy, that's for sure. There's just something about him that's pure and innocent, and I want him to stay that way. I hope he never gets jaded. I hope he never loses that "Changmin-ness" that he has right now. There's just something about him I can't put my finger on, and it's like a whiff of fresh air for me.

He makes me feel. He makes me laugh, he makes me cry, he makes me feel jealous *ahem*. I can't remember being this happy over someone I barely even know, before I got to know Changmin. He just has to flash those pearly whites of his, and it keeps me all bouncy and giddy for the rest of the day. Changmin's my drug, and his smile feeds my addiction.

Haha. Sometimes, I say he's my angel. At the concert *the Feb 13th one*, they performed "My Little Princess", and they were standing on these round platform-like things that rose and left them way up high in the air. I was staring at Changmin. I thought, "Wow, Changmin really looks like an angel." Much to my *pleasant* surprise, Changmin started flapping his arm, probably pretending that they were wings. Argghh! I got teary-eyed. Hehehe.

I'm sooo proud of Changmin. He acted superbly on Banjun Theatre episode. Everytime he cried, I could feel my heart aching along with his. I wanted to rip my heart out of my chest, because it hurt so much.

I'm not jealous of Bomi though. *She acted with him during Unforgettable Love* I don't know why. I'm not jealous of her. Haha. Not that I get jealous easily. But everyone expects me to go all "Grrr, I'm so freaking jealous!!" Haha. Ok I admit, I'm a little jealous of her. But that's just cause Changmin hugged her. It's not that terribly kind of jealous that eats you up inside. On the contrary, I thought it was cute that Changmin was being all sweet with a girl. It just goes to show how sweet Changmin really is. I can see him being like that. I just pray that his first girlfriend is someone who really loves him, someone who'll never break his heart. It's a nearly impossible wish but I pray for him all the time.

*sigh*

I love Changmin soo much. Hahahah....I feel like climbing Mount Everest just so I can scream "SARANGHAEYO SHIM CHANGMIN!" at the top of my lungs.

Haha. I'm so mushy. But seriously, this boy makes me soo proud to be his fan. I can't wait for the day that I'll be able to say "I'm proud of you!" to him in person.

I know that someday, I'll get over this hyper fangirliness. Someday, Changmin will fall in love. Someday, I'll fall in love too. But I'll always wish for his happiness and safety. He'll always have this special place in my heart.

Am I killing you with my mushiness yet??!! Hahaha.

I'm just so freaking happy. Never mind that my eyes are swollen right now, from crying so much. I cried throughout Changmin's story. All 15+mins. Even when they were playing that "Haengbok"song by H.O.T....especially when they were on the bus, and tears were rolling down Changmin's cheeks.

How can a guy who makes me smile, can make me cry too?? It's beyond my comprehension.

But sometimes, there are things in life that you will just never understand. It's better to just feel and savour the feeling while it lasts. Hehehe.

Saranghaeyo, Changmin oppa.



Changmin's one and only baka ♥
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