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Disclamer


I'm not here to please.

The Music Girl


Name
SHA
With a passion for dancing
and song-writing,
her aim to unite different music genres
with different languages
exceeds her 23-year-old mind.
23 & is a part of
INNtheBox Production
and
4'Dee Krew.

welcome to my blog
which is full of my
life,emotions,friends,family,AND ,OBSESSION

She Wants


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[Shim Changmin]
[18th Feb 1988]
[my ONE and ONLY PABO]

120gb Ipod Classic
Shabu Shabu
My own Concert
My own Dance School
TVXQ Goodies
Go to Korea
Get Degree
Lose Weight
FishEye Lens
Changmin's nametag
More Money
DVD Player
Drum Set
Guitar
LG Viewty
Hoodie
TVXQ Bonjour Paris Photobook
TVXQ Shine Photobook
Changmin S-cube Shirt
Changmin's Two Hearts/Wild Soul Single
TVXQ Prague Photobook
TVXQ BigEast DVD
TVXQ T Tour DVD
2009 TVXQ Wall Calendar
TVXQ Mirotic Album Version A
TVXQ Mirotic Album Version B
TVXQ Mirotic Album Version C
Changmin's Pendant
Changmin's Chinese Name Earrings
TVXQ Photobook: A Week Holiday-Camping
TVXQ Photobook: A Week Holiday-It's Stylish
Uknow Style Leather Bracelet
Eat Sapporo Ramen
Go Amusement Park
Stay in a Hotel Suite
Eat MACnCHEESE
Wilde the Movie DVD
Velvet Goldmine DVD
Diana+ Edelweiss Edition Lomo
TVXQ The Secret Code Album [2CD+DVD]
Penguin Converse Shoe
ARASHI Around Asia 2008 in Tokyo Dvd
* Yellow Tears * Kiiroi Namida DVD Arashi
Arashi Ninomiya Kazunari Nino Photobook

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Friday, February 29, 2008

Baka and her Pabo;

OH MAI GAHD!!!



As you can see, I've changed my blog layout. I'm getting tired of being emo now. Hahahaha.

Currently, I've been busy with production and post-production with my peeps. I've been coming home late almost everyday. *Mianhe Omma and Appa.* I've not been bonding with my parents nowadays. I miss having dinner with my family. I miss going out with my family. OMMA, APPA, I PROMISE TO DO WELL FOR MY FINAL YEAR PROJECT AND MAKE YOU BOTH PROUD OF ME. KOMAWO OMMA AND APPA FOR UNDERSTANDING WHAT I'M GOING THROUGH AT THE MOMENT. SARANGHAE!!

Even though I've been busy with my production, but I'm having tons of fun with my friends. Was watching Iman and Yati editting the film. Funny!!! We joked around about our film. Hahahhaa. But we're all proud of what we've done. Even though we still have a one more scene to shoot, but I'm proud of the way film our short film. I'm really really glad the three of us are together doing this.

Iman and Yati, thank you soo much for all those fun times we have during our meetings, our filming, our hangouts, basically everyday that we hang out together. You guys seriously rock my life. ROCK.ED @ INNtheBox Production.

To a certain someone, thanks for bringing so much joy and laughter into my life. Before that, my life seems dull but after you came, I feel that I can smile again. Hahahaha. Thanks. ^^

We took loads of photos during our filming. Too many. 1.5GB!!!! So I'm just gonna post a few of those pics. Lol.


Me. The producer.


Yati. The director.


Iman. The director of photography.


Our cast. The Klasher.
Well, that's all the pics I'm gonna show you guys. Hahahaha.



Changmin's one and only baka ♥
2:18 AM

Sunday, February 24, 2008

Baka and her Pabo;

OH MAI GAHD!!!


Tags replied:
to Farnie: babe, i know it's like quite sometime ago but, same to you too!!! Lol.
to Liping: Awww, kwenchana!!! Just concentrate on your exams first!!! Then we'll party with DBSK's music!!! I still want my pabo, Changmin!!! Hahaha.
to Ida: Hi!!! Hahahahaha....how are you?!
to Sonia: Thanks Son!!! I'm not sure if i'm performing next month. I might be though. Must ask Haja later. Haha.
to Imanami: Of course long ah!! My feelings were stated in that letter!! Hahahahah. Kepo ah, Makcik Iman!! Lol.
to Andeera: Awwwwww....komawo!!! I can understand how you feel!!! And I love "Love is All I Need"!! Romantic!!!
to Yati: Yea those hands does look familiar!!! Hahahah. YOUR HAND LA!!! Hahahaha. Ape la nenek Yati. Hehehehhe.
to edinboro: Sape nak perasan ni?! Ceh, ok smbrg! Lol. AH PEK!!!

I'm still loving the month of February. Haha.
Oh, I just received my T album 2 days ago from Hong Kong! Woo hoo!! My 2cd+2dvd T album!! It's kinda sad that I got Yoochun oppa's photo card. I want Changmin's! Lol. I think Chels got Changmin's. Hahahha. We both got each other fav members instead. Don't really have time to listen to all the songs yet at the moment.
So many things happened in my life. I don't even know where to begin!! Been busy doing the production. Been busy having fun. Hehehhehe.
We finished filming at around 6"30pm. We went to film the older version of the Rockers. Lol. They were COOL!!!! My dad and uncle played 2 of the characters. Hahahaaha. It was hilarious. I'm glad my dad was there. He can actually see for himself what I'm doing for my final year project. he can actually see for himself what we're doing. He knows how difficult it is for us to film this. So i'm just glad that he's there.

Went Clark Quay after filming with Iman and Yati. Asked "Ah Pek" Yassin along but he claims he's too lazy to go. Psh, whatever!! Ok smbrg!! Hahahahhaa. Talked bout matters of the heart since Clark Quay is our hangout. Whenever we're there, we're not allowed to talk about our schoolwork. Hahahaha. I had fun, man. Laughing like a maniac there with those two. Lol. Ate chocolates!![:P to Yassin!!!] Ate chips with them!! We just sat at the staircase and just look at the Singapore River. Hahahhaaha. Sigh, it's such an amazing place to be with your friends and loved ones.

Anyway, going out with my cousins later. The initial plan was to go for a picnic at Botanical Garden, but 3 backed out at the last minute, so might end up watching a movie. Dang. Guess my first time of going Botanical Garden might have to wait. Lol.

Speaking of first time, I can't wait for a certain day with a certain someone at a certain place. Lol. Yea yea, I'm soo excited!! Psh....lol....


Fiddy, Me and Yati


I love doing pabo's fav pose. Hahahahahaha.


Acting cute. Hahahaha. But failed!! Lol. I love my chingus!! Saranghae!!



Changmin's one and only baka ♥
12:08 AM

Wednesday, February 20, 2008

Baka and her Pabo;

OH MAI GAHD!!!



Received two toys from Celine and Mel. Hahaahaha. And it's not even my birthday!! I swear, the toys are sooo kawaii!!!


Yati's [In PINK] and Mine [In GREEN]. I've been thinking of a name for my little pau! Yea, it's a pau!! Celine got it for us from Japan!! KAWAII DESU NE?!


The weird freaky voodoo doll is bought by Mel from Thailand!!! Hahahahhaa. I named it "Ah Pek" courtesy of a certain "ah pek" that I know. Coz it reminds me of him. Hahaahaha. SKINNY!!



Changmin's one and only baka ♥
10:28 PM

Monday, February 18, 2008

Baka and her Pabo;

OH MAI GAHD!!!



I wrote 2 letters to Changmin. Yea, I know, CRAZY!!! But who cares!!! Lol. Urusai!!!

Letters from Sha to Shim Changmin.

Letter 1

Dear Changmin,

First of all, Happy birthday Shim Changmin! You're 20 years old [21 years old in Korea] today. May you be able to celebrate it with your friends and family members!!!

Anyway,

There’s something which I really need to get off my chest. I know it might sound crazy but I need to tell you how I feel.

I want to know how it feels like to be loved by you. To be the only girl, beside your mum and sisters, in your heart. To be held tightly by you. To be protected by you.

I want to be comforted by you with your dorky but witty jokes. I kept wishing you were here with me everywhere I go. I wish you were by my side, laughing at my lame jokes, ruffling my hair, hugging me when I’m lonely. I wish you were here to make me happy when I'm having a bad day. I wish you were here to make me laugh when I cry. I wish you were by my side when I'm having a nightmare.

You’re all I think of every day, every hour, every minute and every second. Which is scary as we've never even met! I feel like I've known you forever. And the love that I have for you is not those celebs crushes types. It's more. You bring out the woman in me, the confident woman in me that I’ve always hidden. You make me feel I can do anything I want as long as I set my mind to.

Your heart and personality makes me love you more than your handsome features. I love the way your parents brought you up. I love how humble you are. The shyness in you makes me adore you. I love how honest you are. I love how you are always trying to do your best whenever you’re filming anything, or singing, or dancing. I love how passionate you are about your career. I love how you try not to be cute but always ended up looking cute without you knowing. I love how you will always put others first before yourself. I swear, there are times when I just want to go into the computer screen and just kiss you for being that kind of person.

Before going to sleep every night, I would always think of you. Wondering how you are doing. Wondering if you have looked after your health. Wondering if you had enough rest. I wish I could be with you and say, "Yah pabo, you better eat and rest if you want to keep up your strength!!” I wonder if let's say we meet, will you remember those girls who love you? Will you remember each and every one of those girls who love you? Girls who love you, not for your looks, not for your fame, but for who you are inside. Cause that's how I love you.

Some people might think I'm crazy and totally obsessed but........

You’re the only boy who makes my heart go faster and slower at the same time. You’re the only boy who makes me laugh and cry at the same time. You’re the only boy who I think of every day and every night. You’re the only boy who can make me smile at any random things. You’re my pabo and my drug and I love and am totally addicted to you.

Some people say it's crazy to love a celeb like how I love you. But I’ve never love you as a celeb. I love you as a person. I like Choikang Max Changmin. But I LOVE SHIM CHANGMIN.

Loads of love,
Sha.


Letter 2

Because I've been missing him soo much, I decided to write another letter to him!! Yea, I'm still being crazy!!

Changmin ah,

I miss you soo much!! I'm glad you're back in Korea. I'm glad you're eating well. Don't go on a diet please!!! I'm the one who should go on a diet!! Pabo ah, don't make me worry for your health!! I don't want you falling sick!! My heart really aches whenever I heard that you're sick or you're not eating well. Everyday I think of you, wondering if you're ok. Wondering if you're eating much. Wondering if your hyungs look after you or if you're looking after your hyungs. Wondering if you've called your omma and appa to talk to them.

Everyday I think of you, hoping you won't get into anymore accidents *curse those fans!!!*. Hoping SM Lee will look after my pabo and my 4 oppas. Changmin ah, if only I could meet you, I'll hold you tight and never let go, coz, every moment that I'm not with you just makes my heart aches. I just want to hold you in my arms and say "Kwenchana, I'm here, pabo." If only I could meet you.

Today is your birthday, pabo. I'm glad you're able to celebrate it in Korea with your friends and family. Well, I HOPE you get to celebrate it in Korea. Though I'm not with you, though you're not here with me, I hope you have an amazing time on your birthday! You're a MAN now, pabo!! ^^ Jaega, Changmin-shii jeongmal saranghae!! Make me, *and all your lovely fans* proud, Shim Changmin. Coz I know you're PROUD of our love! And I'm PROUD of your love!

Saranghae, pabo!!

Loads of love,
Sha.



Changmin's many expressions 1


Changmin's many expressions 2

That pabo look of his can melt even the hardest heart!!! Well, mine anyway!!!!



Changmin's one and only baka ♥
2:48 AM

Friday, February 15, 2008

Baka and her Pabo;

OH MAI GAHD!!!



February I'm In Love!! Hahahhhaahaha. Thanks Yati for that phrase!! Lol.

I'm not sure what the big hype is about on Feb 14th. It's just an ordinary day except things are a LITTLE expensive. I don't see the point on having guys declare their love for their girlfriends on Valentine's day. What's wrong with any other day?

But then, Feb 14th can also be considered as a special day, can be grouped together with special occasions like, birthdays, anniversaries. It's a special day where there's love all around.

Hypocrite, aren't I? Lol. Well, the reason for me feeling this way is due to the fact that I've not had a single relationship once in my life. So I can be excused for feeling this way. BUT...........

As I watched couples walking passed me with bouquets of flowers, I can't helped thinking, wishing that I was one of them. I can't helped but wished I could be walking down the streets with my pabo, having the time of our lives. Cliche, I know, but I can't helped but feel this way.

Went to school as per normal. Hahaha. Had Jason's class. The 3 "ROCK GILERS" consulted with Jason before heading for lunch with Shahida. Then at 3pm, went for James's lesson. Since it's consultation week, we can consult with him any time. While waiting for our turn, Yati, Iman, Mel and I played "Happy Family". It's been quite sometime since I last played that card games. Hahhaa. Initially, I won. But we played wrongly. So the second time, we played correctly and Mel won. I think she's gone mad!! Hahahaha.

Called "Ah Pek" Yassin at 4pm to wake him up from his "beauty" nap!! So ah pek!!! Hahahaha. Went to student lounge to check our mails. Since Ah Pek is working at Suntec, Yati, Iman and I decided to surprise him. We reached Suntec around 6 plus. Hahahahaha. Ah Pek ACTUALLY RUN when he saw us. He actually ran towards us!! Hahahaha..omo...soooo kanchiong!!! Then Iman, Yati and I headed to McD's to relax and just talk. Hahahah. I realised that we didn't go to our secret hangout, since we're supposed to go there whenever we wanna talked about the matters of the heart. But, oh well. Hahahhahaa.

Chatted with Yati, Iman and Ah Pek just now. Lol. CRAZY PEOPLE. My chingus are sooo crazy!!! Lol.

Just saw a pic of pabo which I REALLY REALLY LOVE!!!! Jaega, jeongmal jeongmal joayo!!!!


This is why I LOVE A GOOD LOOKING NERD!!!



Changmin's one and only baka ♥
1:34 AM

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

Baka and her Pabo;

OH MAI GAHD!!!




Currently listening to: Two Hearts by Shim Changmin.

I'm sooo tired. I'm sooo sleepy. I just want to close my eyes and pretend nothing happen. I just want to go back to where things were before. My heart aches. It hurts too much. Waeyo?!

Ok, enough with these. I've got to stop being emotional. Lol.

Had my first solo performance just now!! Oh mai gahd!! I thought I was gonna puke!! Haja backed out a 1 or 2 weeks ago so I had to perform by myself. And I thought I was only to dance 1 song, but NOOOOOOOO!!! I had to dance 2 FREAKING SONGS!!!! My first song was a compilation of Justin Timberlake's "Cry Me A River" and "Sexyback" and DBSK "No Pain No Gain". But when I found out I had to dance another song, I FREAKED OUT!!! Haja was like, "Why don't you danced to DBSK's song, Purple Line?". I didn't managed to memorise the whole dance so I was like "Ok fine, you know what, I'm just gonna do impromtu.".

So I danced those two dance. Hahahaha. Iman was supposed to videotape me dancing but he came late and only managed to record me dancing halfway through the second song "Purple Line". But, kwenchana. Thank god for my friends who came and supported me!!

Thanks to Yati, Iman, Tyas, Sonia, Wei Quan, Evelyn, Fishball, Richardson, Hafifi, Anson, Shi Lei and many more!! Thanks guys for supporting me!! Saranghae!!

Oh, after dancing, "Ah Pek" Yassin sms me asking me why I didn't invite him along. Sorry Ah Pek!!! I thought you had class from 8am till 6pm!! You could have just teleport to NAFA!!! Lol.

Jason called when I reached home, asking me bout the performance. Hahahahha. He was sorry he couldn't make it. Well, at least he called. ^^

In the morning, chatted with Kat, Keva, Chels and Karen. Kathy is spamming us with pics of DBSK!!! Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrgggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!! Changmin!!!!!! I love that dorky pabo of mine!!!!


Even as a young boy, he still makes my heart flutters. Lol.


From left to right: Junsu oppa, JaeJoong oppa, my pabo Changmin, Yoochun oppa and Yunho oppa. I love this pic of pabo. Him wearing his specs!!! I like a goodlooking nerd!!!


Told ya pabo is dorky and crazy!!! YAH SHIM CHANGMIN!!! WHAT IS UP WITH YOUR EXPRESSION?! I still love him!!! Jaega, jeongmal saranghae!! ^^



Changmin's one and only baka ♥
7:13 PM

Sunday, February 10, 2008

Baka and her Pabo;

OH MAI GAHD!!!



Ok, I know I've not been posting regularly. So many things to do and I've been really lazy to update. But I do know that I've been getting my daily dose of my pabo. Hehehehhe.

9th Feb.

Farnie's birthday!! Saengil chukha hamnida dongseng!! You're 19 this year!! Congratulations. I hope you've become more mature!! ^^

Went Sim Lim in the afternoon for her birthday. I was supposed to pretend to want to buy an SLR Canon EOS 400D, but in the end, Farnie and I got the camera. THANK YOU WAK LAN!!! KOMAWO AHJUSSI!!!

Finally, after months of wishing of owning an SLR camera, I OWNED ONE!!! Hahaahaha...take that pabo!! Now not only you have one, I have one too!!! No longer will I be envious of you, pabo!! Hehehehhehehehee.

Then went Swenson at Changi Airport. I ate Chicken Mushroom Spaghetti. Lol. Oishiie desu ne!!! Walked around airport before settling at Starbucks. I ordered Chocolate Cream Chip frappucino. It was DELICIOUS!!!

Reached home around 12 plus in the morning. Anyway, not only is 9th Feb is Farnie's birthday, it's also Hankyung oppa from 13-members group SUJU birthday!!


Saengil Chukha Hamnida Oppa!!! You're 24 [25 in Korea] this year!!!



10th Feb.

Filming starts today!! Lol. Met with Yati and Suming at my house. Dad and Uncle sent us to Tyas's hostel to get the equipment and meet with Iman, Khairul, Hafifi, Din and Yassin. Reached the jamming studio around 11 plus in the morning. Yati and Iman set up the equipment while I accompanied the cast while they eat.

We finally finished Scene 2 despite the fact that we've spent most of our time laughing. I had a blast filming our short film. They're really a crazy bunch of people!!!

Went to have dinner with them at Al-Jilani. Had fun teasing Yati!! Hehehehhee.

Currently chatting with Keva and Chels. Chatted with Iman and Yati earlier on. Lol. Heheheheh.

Oh and since today is 10th Feb, it's Siwon oppa from SUJU birthday!!


Saengil Chukha Hamnida Siwon oppa!!! You're 21 [22 in Korea] this year!!!

Omo, I need my daily dose of Changmin today. Was too busy with production that I didn't have the time to check anything about pabo. But I'm happy to say, his single debuted at 10th position at Oricon Singles Chart. Unfortunately, as of today, his position fell from 10th to 14th. Kwenchana pabo, when I've found someone who can loan me their credit card, I'll buy your single!!! I love your Two Hearts. I'm just happy that you're leading the song for Two Hearts!! Saranghae, pabo!!!



Changmin's one and only baka ♥
11:04 PM

Wednesday, February 06, 2008

Baka and her Pabo;

OH MAI GAHD!!!



Now, it's 1:06am and it's OFFICIALLY YUNHO OPPA'S BIRTHDAY!!!

OPPA!!! SAENGIL CHUKHA HAMNIDA!!!




Yunho oppa MANY EXPRESSIONS. HOTT!!!
HAPPY 22nd [23rd in Korea] BIRTHDAY OPPA!!! SARANGHAE!!!



Changmin's one and only baka ♥
1:05 AM

Tuesday, February 05, 2008

Baka and her Pabo;

OH MAI GAHD!!!




Tomorrow is Yunho oppa's birthday!!! Oppa is turning 22 (23 in Korea) on 6th Feb 2008. Aigoo, Yunho oppa has become a MAN!!! Lol.

Was thinking of doing something for oppa........hmmmmmmmmmmm.....

Kinda busy with ISCG right now. It's all i've been thinking about ever since year 3, second semester started. Lol. All thanks to Yati for being soooo work-obssessed!! Lol. I think she's gone MAD!!!! Hahahahahhahahaa. Going to Iman's house tomorrow to check out how the cast interact with one another and to have a rehearsal with them.

Plus, I'm going for Chinese New Year reunion too!!! Going to my aunt's house. I can't wait!!! Gonna play mahjong!! DEFINITELY!!! Lol. That's the best thing about having a chinese father and a malay mother. You get to celebrate 2 festivals!!! Lol. My friends are all envying me. TOO BAD!!!! Mianhe. Hehehehhehehee.

Oh, and i went shopping with Yati just now. Hehehehe. We went to Kallang to look at one of these locations we had in mind. Then went to Haji Lane to "House of Japan" to get clothes for our production. Dang, the place stunk!! I kept sneezing! Then Iman went to meet up with his girlfriend while Yati and I (whom are single.....-_-"...lol...) went to eat at KFC. Then went to Bugis Village to buy some clothes. Yati has been wanting to shop for quite sometime, and me, being the NICE girl that i am, i went with her. She bought a really cute top that has shakes, fries and burger drawings on it. It cost around $12. Then i bought this really funky top which cost around $10. Cheap!!! Hahahahhaa.

Went back school to get all the avp equipments. Dang, we had to call Wei Quan to help us carry to Tyas's hostel. Lol. It was fun, but tiring. Went to student lounge to check mails. Went home around 6pm. Ever since year 2008 started, this is the first time that i went home early!!! Lol.

Oh, I've watched TVXQ Purple Line korean version. It was FREAKING AWESOME!!! I died when i saw how SMEXY my oppas and pabo look!!! Oh, that vid was sooo SMOKING HOTT!!!

I miss pabo.....lol....


Love the smile. ^^


I need to say something to this PABO of mine! YAH SHIM CHANGMIN!! WHAT HAPPEN TO "I'M NOT GOING TO PIERCE MY EARS"??!! But surprisingly, I like it. No matter what, I still love you, Shim Changmin. ^^ Saranghae!!


Aigoo, i can't resist that cute little boy!! Can't believe he grew up to be my pabo!!!! Hahahahhaa.


A HOTT and SWEATY Changmin. JOAYO!!!!


Who can resist that smile?!?!?!?! This smile is seriously TURNING ME ON!!! Pabo, saranghae!!



Changmin's one and only baka ♥
9:04 PM

Sunday, February 03, 2008

Baka and her Pabo;

OH MAI GAHD!!!

Ok, this clip that i'm showing you guys is TVXQ YAMAHA commercial Feb2,2008

I swear, the boys are sooooo FREAKING ADORABLE!!! ESPECIALLY MY PABO!!! At the end he said "Sab Mak Mak" with that adorable face of his!!! AAAIIIIIIGGGGGGOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!




Changmin's one and only baka ♥
2:03 PM

Friday, February 01, 2008

Baka and her Pabo;

OH MAI GAHD!!!








Now it's 2:44am and i'm still not asleep. Currently chatting with Chels, Kat, Yati and Iman. Yati has all of DBSK oppas plus one pabo tagging her tagboard!!! *humph* Lol.


Had loads of fun with my group members!!! I love them soo much. I know i kept saying that but i think we've bonded more. We're even more closer than we were last year. We have our own secret *well, not really a secret* hangout where only there we'll talked bout the matters of the heart. I love that place.


I miss my pabo....mianhe, it's kinda random but i can't help it...i kept worrying bout his health, hoping he eats to his heart's content. I know he works soo hard, but i hope he'll at least get some rest.


YAH PABO!!! EAT WELL!!! REST WELL!! ARASO!!!


Some guy, Yoochun oppa and my pabo, Changmin.


My oppa-dul and pabo. Front two: [from left] JaeJoong oppa and Yunho oppa. Back three: [from left] Yoochun oppa, Junsu oppa and pabo, Changmin.


They're all looking hott!! From left: Junsu oppa, Yoochun oppa, JaeJoong oppa, pabo Changmin and Yunho oppa. Can't believe pabo look soo hott with that smile!! That smile can just melt anyone's heart. Well, mine anyway. Lol.


Oh and Yunho oppa's birthday is COMING!!! 6th Feb!!!


Yunho oppa looking HOTT!!


Oppa!! NAMJA!!!


I think Yati might like this pic. No, not might, she WILL DEFINITELY like this pic. HAHAHAHHAA. Sexy oppa!!!



I'm gonna post more pics of oppa on his birthday!!! Lol....



Changmin's one and only baka ♥
2:43 AM