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Disclamer


I'm not here to please.

The Music Girl


Name
SHA
With a passion for dancing
and song-writing,
her aim to unite different music genres
with different languages
exceeds her 23-year-old mind.
23 & is a part of
INNtheBox Production
and
4'Dee Krew.

welcome to my blog
which is full of my
life,emotions,friends,family,AND ,OBSESSION

She Wants


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[Shim Changmin]
[18th Feb 1988]
[my ONE and ONLY PABO]

120gb Ipod Classic
Shabu Shabu
My own Concert
My own Dance School
TVXQ Goodies
Go to Korea
Get Degree
Lose Weight
FishEye Lens
Changmin's nametag
More Money
DVD Player
Drum Set
Guitar
LG Viewty
Hoodie
TVXQ Bonjour Paris Photobook
TVXQ Shine Photobook
Changmin S-cube Shirt
Changmin's Two Hearts/Wild Soul Single
TVXQ Prague Photobook
TVXQ BigEast DVD
TVXQ T Tour DVD
2009 TVXQ Wall Calendar
TVXQ Mirotic Album Version A
TVXQ Mirotic Album Version B
TVXQ Mirotic Album Version C
Changmin's Pendant
Changmin's Chinese Name Earrings
TVXQ Photobook: A Week Holiday-Camping
TVXQ Photobook: A Week Holiday-It's Stylish
Uknow Style Leather Bracelet
Eat Sapporo Ramen
Go Amusement Park
Stay in a Hotel Suite
Eat MACnCHEESE
Wilde the Movie DVD
Velvet Goldmine DVD
Diana+ Edelweiss Edition Lomo
TVXQ The Secret Code Album [2CD+DVD]
Penguin Converse Shoe
ARASHI Around Asia 2008 in Tokyo Dvd
* Yellow Tears * Kiiroi Namida DVD Arashi
Arashi Ninomiya Kazunari Nino Photobook

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Thursday, January 29, 2009

Baka and her Pabo;

OH MAI GAHD!!!



I read somewhere that if you love someone, you have to let him/her go. If you're meant to be, he/she will come back to you.

I never realised that this words will come into my life. I know it'll come sooner or later, but I just didn't realised it will be this soon. I don't practise what I preach. Well, when it comes to love affairs, that is. I can tell you not to be too excited everytime you meet him. I can tell you not to say "yes" everytime he asked you out, so as to appear hard to get. I can tell you not to keep waiting for his calls or smses, since a watched phone never rings. I can tell you all that.

But I can also tell you that, I don't do all those that I've said. Like what I've said, I don't practise what I preached. It's not that I don't want to. It's cause, I don't have the heart to do it. I believed that if you really like/love someone, there's no reason not to let him/her know. Sure, it's a game of love. But I never really thought it's a must to play to keep things interesting.

But sometimes, I must know when to admit defeat. I can tell you that, if, I had done what I had preached, I might not have felt soo much hurt right now. I might not have think soo much. And, I might not have gone into depression. I know ppl will say "I told you so."

I'm scared. I think I'm on the verge of depression again. I didn't sleep, I didn't eat that much. I sat up at night, crying. I'm scared of what's happening to me. I didn't feel like going to work. I feel like lying on my bed all day. But I needed the money. And, I know that, I wake up everyday for work, because of one friend, Marhamah. The one friend who can tahan basically all my crap. And the one friend whom I'll miss loads if I stop working at NTUC Income.

I guess, that's what both he and I are doing now. We're both letting each other go while remaining as friends. Is that what I want? I can honestly say no. We've known each other too well, the good and the bad. And I'll probably end up celebrating my 1 year anniversary of my first date alone. And I'll doubt he'll remembers. I guess it's true. Guys + Commitments = Total Disaster. But it's probably for our own good. And I'll gain a really good friend.

And I know, despite being positive, I'll end up being in depression once again.

P.S. Theme/Amusement park, anyone? I wanna let my inner child out.

Sorry pabo, but


Thank you Lee Junho for being dorky and smiling all the time and making me laugh with your crazy antics for 4 days straight when I was bored and when I couldn't sleep at night. Thank you for making me swoon over your soulful vocals when I'm missing pabo. Thank you for being cute and making me look at you all the time during Idol Show. Thank you for making me like you on your birthday. And, am I the only one who don't think you look like Rain? Lol.


Nichkhun, Taekyeon, Junho, Jaebeom, Junsu, Chansung and Wooyoung. Can't believe you're all younger than me, except for Jaebeom oppa. I love Junho's smile. 1st December 2008. The date where I officially like you guys. Thank you for entertaining me with all your craziness. Do continue enthralling us with your dance moves and vocals.


I miss these dorky boys. Especially the pabo who thinks his back is what I wanna see. Lol. And I know that pabo's thinking of me when he claims his sexiest part of the body is his side jawline. He knows I love his jawline. Hahahahhaa.

Tags replied:

Nydia: Lol. I'm still single. So it's ok. Hahaha. Pabo had girlfriendS before. Heheheeheh.
PY: I miss you too. Yea, I've been crying at night nowadays. Lol. It sucks cause my eyes will look puffy the next day. Not glam at all! Give you? Hmmmmm....I'll think bout it. Lol. Yea, let's pretend he's camwhoring using MY camera. HAHAHAHAHA. He's definitely thinking of me. Hahahaha. We're meant to be! Hahahaha. He knows I've always wanted him to look aegyo, so since I'm looking at Lee Junho more, he's trying to attract my attention back. HAHAHAHAHAHHA.
Amy: I'm bored too. And I miss you guys loads.



Changmin's one and only baka
9:27 AM



Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Baka and her Pabo;

OH MAI GAHD!!!


Tags replied:

Kaamin: I would love to have fun, but there's no place to go. Hahahahha. I'll be waiting for your MACnCHEESE!!! Hehehehe...
PY: Lol. Can my pillow be the one that I cry to? I've been keeping inside me for soo long, I'm just scared that it'll burst. Lol. I miss you, py!!
Fyze!: hahahaha. THANK YOU!!! I didn't see you!! I wasn't wearing any specs. Which day and time did you see me?
Kat: Omo, that sucks. Poor you. What is it bout?
Minrina: I'm 160cm. All I know is that the top of my head will reach his shoulder. That's how short I look. hhahahhaha.
Ani: Bosco looks sooo cute, can!!!!
Ida: yea I'm fine. ^_^
Liping: Sorry girl. If I went there, by that time, everything will be over.
Ani: I have to camwhore alot now!! Lol.
PY: Telepathy? Ok, that's better than competition. Hehehehehe. If pabo answer the phone in a gayish voice, I swear, I'll record and sell it to those crazy fangirls. Hahahaha. I'll be rich and thus able to go to wherever pabo is. Lol.
Ani: Especially Alvin, Farid and Will. Lol.
Yati: Wooooooooooooo!!! I'm soo happy!!!

["Today for a second I waited,
A pause that I needed to take.
Held tight were my eyes to the pillow,
Delayed was the motion to wake.
A moment was needed to listen,
To the silence that filled the new day.
A moment to be more decisive,
About the self that I want to portray.

Sometimes I wish I felt pretty,
Sometimes I wish I was more.
Sometimes I wish I could vanish,
Through a promising wide-open door.
Sometimes I wish I felt needed,
Sometimes I wish it was true.
Sometimes I wish I could realise,
All the things that I needed to do.

But the wishes of maybe are countless,
And the hours do not disagree.
That time makes a habit of slipping away,
And there's only one chance to be me.

I'll always know when I'm tired,
And I'll always know each mistake.
I'll always know when I'm happy,
And I'll always know when I'm fake.
I'll never regret that which happens,
I'll never deny a good friend.
I'll never, on purpose, harm my own heart,
I'll be there for me in the end."]
-Sharina Yap-

I'm not meant for love. Anymore.



Thanks for making my day, you crazy pabo.



Changmin's one and only baka
1:21 PM



Sunday, January 25, 2009

Baka and her Pabo;

OH MAI GAHD!!!


I did not go to Kuala Lumpur, at all.

Curse the jam at both Tuas and Woodlands.

Hated the fact that I actually had to spend my vacation at home.

Bored at home.

Dying of boredom.

Hated the fact that I could be at Sunway Lagoon, playing at the theme park.

Damn.



Changmin's one and only baka
10:58 PM



Saturday, January 24, 2009

Baka and her Pabo;

OH MAI GAHD!!!


Will reply to tags soon.

Will not be in Singapore from 24th Jan till 26th Jan. A bit disappointed with the whole thing and what had happened, but I'm trying my best to put a smile on my face.

Might not have time to wish JaeJoong oppa a happy birthday post on 26th Jan, so I'll say an advanced Happy birthday now.

Happy Advanced Birthday JaeJoong oppa. May you have an ASS-KICKING year ahead of you. Please look after your health. Have more YunJae moments with Yunho oppa. Cook more delicious food for pabo since he kept complaining that you seldom cook. Compose more beautiful songs with Yoochun oppa. Tease and pretend to scold Junsu oppa more. Stop eating SPICY food cause it's hot and it'll make you sweat and thus makes you lose weight and that's why you're skinny. Eat more junk food like pabo.

And NEVER drink and drive on your birthday. Don't repeat what happened in 2005/2006.

Happy birthday once again. ^_^



Changmin's one and only baka
12:11 AM



Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Baka and her Pabo;

OH MAI GAHD!!!


After hearing the answer,








I cried to sleep.

Once again.



Changmin's one and only baka
9:42 AM



Monday, January 19, 2009

Baka and her Pabo;

OH MAI GAHD!!!


Tags replied:

Rool: Hahahahaha...I think he did!!! Hahahahahaha. Guess that's why he's the singing UNNIE and I'm the dancing OPPA!! hhahahahha. Our genders were switched! Lol.
Kaamin<3: Well, if you come, we can spazz over pabo together. Hahahahah. Don't record first. I'm not sure when I have the time to record, though. Hahaha. And bout chicken, sigh, I doubt I can stop eating it. Hahahahahah. It's FINGER-LICKING-GOOOOOOD!! Lol.
Sharon: That's why I'm AMAJING yo! Hahahaha. That's why we're paboxbaka couple. Hahahahahahha. I miss you too!!! After CNY, k?
Sonia: OMG!!! THAT DANCE WAS EPIC!!!! The popping, the locking!!! It's all <3!!!>

PY: HAHAHAHAHAHAHHA...pictures?! Video better. Or better still, just imprison him in my room. You can run and hide behind Key BUT you can NEVER escape my NUCLEAR PUNCH!!! MUAHAHAAHAHAHA... -_-" Hahahaha. And yea, if the surname was SHIM, I swear, I think I'll get the phone number and just called pabo and asked if he's indeed a female in disguise. Lol.
Ani: Of course I'm sweet. Hehehehe. Although he might not wanna give the money now after I hit his knee............hahahaha...
Sonia: Sorry babe for not letting you know!!! I haven't had the chance to check my blog. Thus I didn't know you asked bout the timing! Sorry!!!
Yati: Hahahahah..you better be joking! Lol. How was the match?! How's my Eric? Hehehehe.
Kat: I know what you meant!! I wanna update my blog regularly too but sometimes, I'm just too lazy. Hahahaa.

I'm feeling the monday blues now.

~~~16th Jan 2009, Friday

Didn't go to work as I had performance at NAFA open house. Danced to Military Set and LanLyrical Set. Only Farid, Alvin, Will, Ani and I performed since the others are busy. All I can say was, Military was AWESOME. Hahahahaha. The dance ended around 3pm. Ani went off with her "friend" first. Farid had class. Alvin had to stay behind since he's helping with the open house. So I went home with Will. Hahahaha. We watched the dance clip and laughed at our dance. Hahahahah.

I went Northpoint Library for awhile before going home.

17th Jan 2009, Saturday

Had another dance performance at NAFA. Lol. 5 of us reached around 11am. Danced to the same set 3 times. Hahahahah. Highlight of the moment, Ani and I were high after drinking Redbull. Not one can, not 2 cans BUT 3 CANS OF REDBULL. -_-" Hahahaahahah. We started singing along to the songs sang by the boys from the Jamming Club. We started dancing without any warning. And, I hit Farid's INJURED knee THREE TIMES! Lol. Sorry Farid!

The whole dance ended around 4pm. Ani left with her girlfriends, Will left early, Alvin had to help out with open house. I was supposed to go to Anderson Homecoming and I thought of taking a cab to Anderson. Farid accompanied me all the way to Dhoby Ghaut to look for cabs but in the end we took the train. And, luckily at that time, I haven't board the train yet. Ahpek called and end up meeting him at City Hall instead. Hahahahaha. Farid went off to meet up with Ani at Bugis while I waited for Ahpek at City Hall.

We walked around Suntec then walked all the way to Heeren. I thought I was gonna die. Hahaha. I was already tired from dancing, I still had to walk from Suntec City all the way to Heeren. He wanted to look for his shoes. And the "best" part was, if the shoe's not at Heeren, he wants to walk BACK to The Cathay. I think I can faint at that moment. Luckily he didn't go, cause he saw someone buying the EXACT shoes that he wanted. Hahahaha.

Reached home around 8pm. Stayed with Mum while Dad and Bro went to play soccer. Didn't do much since Mum was sick.

18th Jan 2009, Sunday

Woke up late. Went City Hall with Mum and Bro to meet with Dad. Went Sim Lim to buy my ipod!!! Finally!! Hahahaha. And now, Mr Shim Changmin, yours truly have the SAME IPOD as YOU. Hahahahah. I swear, I think pabo and I are competiting against one another to see who has what first. For eg, I have a Canon Camera RIGHT AFTER he has one. He has a guitar RIGHT AFTER I had one. He has a headphone RIGHT AFTER I had one. I have ipod black classic RIGHT AFTER he has one. So technically, we ARE competiting against one another. Lol. I swear, sometimes, it freak me out. HAHAHAHAHAHHA.

So anyway, the moment I reached home after buying the ipod, went online and update my ipod. Hahaha. Giving the old one to Mum since she wants it. Hahahha.~~~

Going overseas for CNY. I'm bored. I'm sleepy. I'm sooo craving for Sapporo Ramen.

I miss pabo.

And I miss you.

A LOT.



Changmin's one and only baka
11:43 AM



Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Baka and her Pabo;

OH MAI GAHD!!!


Working all day with no news of DBSK can do serious damage to your, erm, eyes. I guess it's fate that I'm in love with that pabo cause even at work, despite not seeing, listening, talking or thinking bout him, I'll still, somehow not in the way I expect, read bout him.

I think it's just amazing I didn't actually scream out loud at work, demanding them to have a full body search on pabo, to see if he's indeed a female. HAHAHAHAH. Although, that's just my excuse to see him naked. *smiles sweetly*

Oh well, it's almost time to go.

Things to do at home, SING................



Changmin's one and only baka
5:23 PM



Monday, January 12, 2009

Baka and her Pabo;

OH MAI GAHD!!!


Tags replied:

Andee: Hahahaha. Yea, all thanks to Changmin. He started the "Oh Mai Gahd" phase during their Christmas greeting in 2007. And he was obsessed with english words. He even mouthed "Oh Mai Gahd" during EHB when they were testing his reflexes with a ruler. Hahahahah. That pabo cracks me up with his SUPER ACCENT english. Hahahahah.
Ani: Woah!! That's cool, man!! I think I should watch that. Worth the money, babe??
Minrina: Yeap!! Now I know how I'll look next to pabo. I'll only be at his shoulder!! Argh! Hahahahaha.
PY: OMG!! Yes!!! He's currently freaking me out now!! Hahahahahah. He's making me question his gender. Hahahahah...
Rool: Hahahah. Mianhe, jahgiya!! Hahahaha. I keep forgetting. Lol...
Yati: Yes yes. Thank you thank you! Hahaha.
Farnie: Yesh!! Super HOTT and super TALL!!! Double bonus for me!!! Hahahahah. Yes babe, we talked on the phone for more than an hour!! Lol...Thank god not 3 hours!! Lol.
Kaamink3u: Hahahaha. Now I have to stop eating chicken. I think I ate too many. Hahahaha. You better come and visit me!! I don't care!! Lol..
Nydia: WAHAHAHAHHAHA. I'm surprised I was still alive after taking photos with them. Lol.
Sharon: Well, technically, it's not much...I just bought it coz it kinda reminds me of ASS. Well, it's not a big thing though. Hahahahaha. I think if you see it, you'll go -_-" Lol.

Oh goodness, bro just got his 'O' Level results and it's not good. Mum's sooo gonna be pissed. My room is sooo gonna be messy since everytime Mum's pissed, she'll end up going to my room and just vent her anger there. Like literally mess up my bed, or throw my stuff on the floor, just cause she's pissed. Didn't realise my room became her boxing gym. Should have bought punching bag and place it in my room for her.

And my parents did plan on going Sembawang mall later tonight to buy the ipod black classic that I wanted. Could have bought it yesterday, but parents decided to buy it today. Well, technically, I'll be paying 80% of the amount and Mum will be paying the remaining 20%. HOWEVER, seeing how Mum will DEFINITELY be in a BAD MOOD, I guess, I can just forget bout getting the ipod tonight. Sigh.

Oh well, things to look forward to:

Friday, having performance at NAFA open house. Getting paid. Wooo.

Saturday, Anderson Homecoming. Hahahah. Can't wait to see all my secondary school friends. Miss them loads.
Movie date with Ahpek. Hahahahah.

Sunday, WAS planning on watching basketball match, BUT, kinda had the feeling that I might not be able to make it. Some company gathering. Oh well, we'll see how it goes.



Changmin's one and only baka
3:00 PM



Wednesday, January 07, 2009

Baka and her Pabo;

OH MAI GAHD!!!


I'm pissed. I'm having lousy weekdays. I'm anticipating the weekend. I'm not in the mood to blog bout my weekdays, though. Weekends are more fun.

Saturday, 3rd Jan 2009

Met with Nydia, Mai, Amy, Steph and Cyn at Bugis around 12pm. Had breakfast/lunch at McDonald. Around 1pm, head off to TopOne for some singing session. Sharon came shortly after 1pm. First song that we sang to was DBSK "Balloons". As usual, I was high the moment the song was played. Sang and danced like no one's business. Lol. Then the others started playing some korean oldies. Surprisingly, there's an oldies version of SNSD "Girls Generation". Hahahaha. Hilarious. As usual, Amy and Steph sang that song. Hahaaha.

Then, we decided to sing to some english songs. We sang to M2M, BSB, Aqua...Since Amy and I are the only ones born in the year 1980s, only both of us sang those songs. The best part was when we were singing to BSB. I got soo high and knocked over Steph's drink. -_-" Hahahhaha. My pants was wet, the floor was slippery and the seats are wet. Hahahahhaha. It was hilarious. We had to stop whatever we were doing and just laughed at me. Lol. Can't believe I got high over Backstreet Boys. Lol.

The rest stayed behind while I left around 3:30pm. I was supposed to meet up with Yassin at Vivo around 3:30pm BUT once again, he's LATE. Lol. Actually, we were supposed to go Botanical Garden, but changed our minds. Lol. He came around 4:30pm, ate at Vivo foodcourt. Then we took a bus to Clark Quay, walked all the way from Clark Quay to Boat Quay to Esplanade, then took the train home. Hahahaha. It was.................fun. HAHAHAHA.

Reached home around 10pm. Talked on the phone with him for almost 2 hours before sleeping.

Sunday, 4th Jan 2009.

Woke up around 10am. Went out with family for some breakfast at Changi Village. *brings back not-so-pleasant memories* Dad dropped me off at Pasir Ris Mrt. Was supposed to meet Yati and Fiddy around 2:45pm at Kallang but I was early, so walked around Pasir Ris Mall. Bought headphone necklace, Changmin's earrings, some stuff for ASSes. Changmin's notebook, SUJU 2009 table calendar and DBSK poker cards. Hahahahhaa. I was bored! Who can blame me! Lol.

Met Yati and Fiddy at Kallang at around 3pm. Went to Indoor Stadium for a basketball match between Singapore Slingers and RP Harbour Centre from Philippines. Saw Bynes there. Hahaha.

We had CORPORATE SEATS BABEEY!!! Lol. Wooooooo! Sooo close to the players!!! Especially to my bald giant boo!!!! Hahahahhaha. Thank god I brought camera. We took loads of court action. Took photos with our fav players. I love you Eric Sandrin!!! Hahahahahha. Yati's in love with Darren Ng. Fiddy's in love with Shane MacDonald. HAHAHAHHAAHHAA. The best part was Eric's 30 years old. O_O He doesn't look 30, man! Lol.


I'm sitting behind that small boy. Hahaha. That's how the near we are to the court! Lol.



The live action. Hahaha.



Yati, Darren Ng and Fiddy. Yati's fav player. ahahahha. Darren's as tall as Changmin. I now know how I'll look next to Changmin. Hahahahaha.



Fiddy and Shane MacDonald. Hahahha.



Me and my bald giant boo. Hahahaha. Note, he's 206cm and he's 30 years old. How could he be 30?! Hahahahha. After taking that photo, I couldn't look into his eyes and was like blushing while thanking him. -_-" Great, I'm like a dork. Hahaha.


So, that's how I spent my weekend. Hahahaha. What to anticipate next? Saturday, meeting Yassin again. Going SP for their open house *don't ask me why I'm going too since I already had my diploma* then going Marina Barrage. Hahahhaa. Sunday, going to Singapore Slingers's basketball match again. Lol. They're playing against BC Bangalore India. Hahahhaha. Sandrin, I'm coming! Lol.

Tags replied:

Farnie: Awww...hahahaha...you guys are special.
Kat: He's super hott AND romantic!!! Hahahahah. I'm loving his vocals!
Yati: Yea!!! Eric!!!! Hahahhahahaha...
Izzati: Paper!!! I miss you!! Hahahahha...how have you been?!?!?! How's Junsu oppa? Lol.
Ani: Hahahaha. We should hang out, babe! Lol.
Siyuan: Your teacher has a facebook?! Hhhahaha. See, that's why I had to make an account!! Hahahhaha. Amy and Rool has one. Jiaqi too. And Wenzhuang. HAHAHAHAH.
PY: Some of them have. hahahhaa. Everyone was like "FINALLY!!! You have a facebook!! Hahahah" -_-"
Minrina: Awwwwww...I know what you mean. Even though I've never met you and the rest of the TVXQSoul girls, but it feels like you guys are a part of me.
Ani: 4DC!!!!!!!!!!!!!! All the way!! All the way to PUNGGOL and JOHOR!!! Lol.
PY: Pabo's OTP with Food and me. HAHAHAHAAHAH. Kim HeeChul = (Y) Hahahaha.
Yati: I actually wanted to do like how you did before you posted yours. Hahahaha. We think alike, babe!!


[ " My mind a chaotic cacophony of thoughts.
I walked barefoot through the cool grass
yearning to delight only in the feeling
of the crisp blades between my toes-
To forget for once the heaviness in my stomach
and the positioning of my clothes
I want to be able to not have to think
about how I shouldn't be thinking so much
To delight in the warmth of the sun on my skin
and the company of thinck laughter
I need to let it drown out the
doubting of my own self-worth
and the need to be reassured of my place here
I need to stop thinking so much
and start being. " ]
-Sharina Yap-



Changmin's one and only baka
9:07 PM



Friday, January 02, 2009

Baka and her Pabo;

OH MAI GAHD!!!


I keep telling myself that I'm not gonna do any new year's resolution causeI know I won't be able to keep it. Cause I know it won't last.

BUT

Thanks to Farid's WONDERFUL suggestion, here is my FIRST new year resolution.

1. To sign up for Facebook.

Oh yea, laugh all you want. I've not signed up for Facebook at the moment. Yea, I'm outdated. So what? I already have Friendster and it's more than I can handle. I've not been updating my Friendster account, and I rarely update my blog nowadays, so what makes everyone thinks I'll be updating Facebook?

At work today, I was, hmmm let's put it this way, I was Facebook surfing. Unregistered user can only view the display picture and a few friends of the users. But the one that got me questioned myself on whether I should be doing an account in Facebook was seeing my SECONDARY SCHOOL TEACHERS and NAFA LECTURERS having a Facebook account. That's how OUTDATED I am.

Should I or shouldn't I? That is the question. Farid's pressurising me in getting a Facebook account. HAHAHAHHAHAHA.


Help!



Changmin's one and only baka
9:51 PM



Thursday, January 01, 2009

Baka and her Pabo;

OH MAI GAHD!!!

First of, Happy new year, y'all!!

So many things happened in the year 2008. If I were able to choose, I have to say, 2008 was the best year of all. I went through loads of fun-filled, emotional, frustrating, depressing, happening, happy and sad days.

2008 was the year of my final year project. The year where I'll know if I'll be able to graduate with a diploma. The months that were filled with stress, laughter, jokes, frustrations, perfection and happiness. And to get an A for our short film was the icing on the cake. People always says, you have to choose the right people to work with. Not only do I do that, but it's with friends whom I treasured the most. The 2 friends who knows how I work, the 2 friends who knows what to do to perk me up, the 2 friends who knows what to say to make me laugh and enjoy working on our short film. The 2 friends who, no matter what, will always be there for me through thick and thin. Yati, it's 9 years now that we've known each other!! And Iman, it's 2 years now!! Wooooooooo. Let's make it long-lasting, you both!!!


INNtheBox Production. My 2 BFFs. Thanks so much. Love you both.

2008 was the year of new feelings found. The months of depression were slowly diminishing away. I never thought I'll be able to smile freely again till I met you. You've made me happy, you've made me sad, you've made me laugh, you've made me mad. No matter what, you're always there for me. You're the ahpek who loves his mum, who always works hard at everything you do, who can be witty and sarcastic but yet shy and sweet, who has an amazing jawline, who can't dance, who eats a lot, who can make me laugh at any random thing, who makes the weirdest expressions but manages to look cute doing it, who kept worrying bout how he looks, who loves teasing me endlessly, who calls me everyday and everynight to talk bout nothing in particular for more than an hour, and who always look after me from a distance. 29th Feb 2008. The first date. ^_^


Don't you dare ask me to take this photo down. Hahha.

2008 was the year of friendships. The bonds that I have with different types of people. TVXQSoul, ASS, NAFA peeps, 4 Dee Crew/Krew, Anderson Clan and ROCK.ED.

TVXQSoul: 1 year had passed and we're still in contact. Though all of us are from different countries and different time zones, we're still able to talk and just update one another with news. No matter what, I'm glad to have known you guys!! Love you Rosa, Kat, Keva, Chelsea, Bobi, Tonya, Karen, Minrina, Ana, Mindy, Passy, Tiffany, Charli, Ali, Choko, Sky, Jangmi, Suzie and the only guy in the group, Ronny. Thanks so much!!

ASS: I know initially, we gotten close due to our passion for bitching. LOL. And I initially thought that was that. But, after hanging out with you guys for quite some time, I began to realise that it's not bout bitching that make us closer. It's the fact that we're all willing to accept one another's flaws, the fact that, we seem to look after one another without knowing, the fact that, no matter what, we're always there for one another. Sure, the main interest that we all have are our love for korean culture. Be it korean dramas, or korean music or even korean food. But that doesn't mean that we all have the same taste in korean culture. For example, some of us love SNSD, whereas some of us aren't a big fan. However, for those who aren't a big fan of SNSD, like myself, instead of being negative on SNSD, we still watch shows that have them, we still watch videos of them, we still listen to their songs. And so vice versa, there are some of us who love DBSK, but there are some whose love for DBSK has died. Despite that, we're still able to compromise with one another. What I'm trying to say is, despite the differences that we had, we're still together. Sure, the age gap between the oldest and the youngest is 8 years, but somehow, we don't really seem to notice. And I know our love our korean bands will die down one day, but I hope that our friendship won't. I know it's kinda cheesy, but who cares. Haha. Here's to more years to come!! ^_^


Sharon, Kamsa Q, Nyida, Me, Zaty, Jannah, Siyuan, Amy, Jiaqi, WenZhuang, Mai, Jolin and Rool. Love you girls. TYVK. Oh by the way, PY's missing. Haha.

4 Dee Crew/Krew: Oh My god!! You guys!! I swear, hanging out with you guys can do serious damage to my brain. HAHAAHHAHA. The dancing, the jokes, the laughters. Hahaha. I swear, even though the crew was newly formed in June, we've grown so close. And I know, we're all different and that our main interest is Dance, but no matter what, I know we got each other's back! Love you crazy people.


The most SEMANGAT people I ever know.

NAFA peeps: Thanks so much for making my 3 years in NAFA a wonderful time. Thanks so much for going through hell with me. The argurments, the scandals, the friendships, thanks so much!! I never thought I could survive without you guys. To my already-dead-scandal, thanks so much for all those times. I won't forget it. I'm still hurt by you, and I know our friendship won't be as close as before, but I just wanna say thank you for always looking out for me. And to the others, thank you for helping me and teaching me on ways to improve myself and my work. Love you all.




Anderson Clan: 9 years guys. 9 f**king years! 5 years of total chaos in secondary school and the remaining years of keeping in contact despite our busy schedule. We've gone through soo much. The troubles that we had, the mischief that we created, the teachers that couldn't believed that they had to teach us, the soccer trainings that we had, the events that we came up with. Thanks so much. It'll always be in my heart.



ROCK.ED: Thanks for the laughters, the jokes, the craziness, the talks. Hahahhaha. Thanks for everything. Thanks for coming into my life and spicing it with all your random and weird ways. Our music is ROCK GILER!! Kita semua tak payah nak ade leader! We are a team! Ah...the times of shooting the film. Hahahaha. Love you all!!!


Din, Hafifi, Khai, Suming and Yassin. You guys rock!! Lol.

2008 was the year of frustrations among me and my family. The year where I had to convinced them that filming is what I loved. The year where I felt that they don't support me in my passion. But no matter what, I'll always loved them. They are always by my side, even though I don't always see it. And I know I don't always see eye to eye with my Mum, but I loved her.


Mum and Bro.


Dad and I.


The ones that I know will always be there for me, no matter what. I love you, my cousins. ^_^

And not forgetting, 2008 was the year of me loving DBSK even more, especially my pabo. ^_^ Hahahahahha. Thank you, boys!!!


Thank you for making my day, everyday. Thank you for being soo humble despite your success. Thank you for making a fool of yourselves and making us feel that you're real. Thank you for not putting on airs and just being you. Thank you for the entertainment. Thank you for giving us all wonderful music and dance. I love you, boys!!!!

And to my CUTE OPPA, Sungmin, Happy Birthday!!! I love you loads!!



And that's the end of it. Oh goodness, I actually spent 4 hours updating this. POWER! hahahahahah.

Tags replied:
Minrina: Happy New Year!! Oh yea, I've watched it. Hahaha. You shouted?! I had to control the scream that's about to come out coz I watched it around 3plus in the morning. HAHAHAAHA.
Kaamin<3: I'm still eating chicken. Hahahaha. Thanks to you once again. Lol. I told you already, get the desk calendar, buy 2 of it, then give me one. ^_^ Hahahahahah.
Yati: I think so. I've been waiting for that day to come. Haha.
Soni: I know!! Soo innocent. They had no idea what the future holds for them. And now, they're huge success. Love them.
PY: Hahahah...I know!! Pabo's the only without any OTP. Haahahaha.
Drake: Happy New Year to you too, Gavin!!! ^_^
Amy: Thanks, girl!! I'm ok now. ^_^ I miss you guys.
WENZhuang: Awwww...my plastic!!! Hahaha. I want our recycle bin!! Lol.
Siyuan: I'm ok now. ^_^ Thanks magnae!!
Nydia: Travelling book? Hehehe. I learnt mine from "Making out in Korean". O_O. Hahaha.
Jannah: Ok. I won't. ^_^ I have you guys. Hahahhahha. Meet up soon.
Eshy: I've already sent the link. Sorry Evelyn for the long overdue pics!!!
Sharon: Merry Christmas, although it's over long time ago. Hahahahaha. How's Taec? Pls don't tell me you're having an affair with him?! What will I tell oppa and Jungmin?! Lol.
PY: What's so good? Let's see, I can eat like a pig without caring what ppl think, I can sleep like a pig without caring what ppl think. Hahahahahha. Kidding yo!! Hahahahaha. You're back in Singapore!!!!!!!! Hahahahhaa. I think Changmin's replies in UFOTown has rubbed of on me. Hahahahha.

Finally. Tags were replied. Hahahahahaha.

Happy New Year Everyone!!

Don't drink and drive!!



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