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Disclamer


I'm not here to please.

The Music Girl


Name
SHA
With a passion for dancing
and song-writing,
her aim to unite different music genres
with different languages
exceeds her 23-year-old mind.
23 & is a part of
INNtheBox Production
and
4'Dee Krew.

welcome to my blog
which is full of my
life,emotions,friends,family,AND ,OBSESSION

She Wants


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[Shim Changmin]
[18th Feb 1988]
[my ONE and ONLY PABO]

120gb Ipod Classic
Shabu Shabu
My own Concert
My own Dance School
TVXQ Goodies
Go to Korea
Get Degree
Lose Weight
FishEye Lens
Changmin's nametag
More Money
DVD Player
Drum Set
Guitar
LG Viewty
Hoodie
TVXQ Bonjour Paris Photobook
TVXQ Shine Photobook
Changmin S-cube Shirt
Changmin's Two Hearts/Wild Soul Single
TVXQ Prague Photobook
TVXQ BigEast DVD
TVXQ T Tour DVD
2009 TVXQ Wall Calendar
TVXQ Mirotic Album Version A
TVXQ Mirotic Album Version B
TVXQ Mirotic Album Version C
Changmin's Pendant
Changmin's Chinese Name Earrings
TVXQ Photobook: A Week Holiday-Camping
TVXQ Photobook: A Week Holiday-It's Stylish
Uknow Style Leather Bracelet
Eat Sapporo Ramen
Go Amusement Park
Stay in a Hotel Suite
Eat MACnCHEESE
Wilde the Movie DVD
Velvet Goldmine DVD
Diana+ Edelweiss Edition Lomo
TVXQ The Secret Code Album [2CD+DVD]
Penguin Converse Shoe
ARASHI Around Asia 2008 in Tokyo Dvd
* Yellow Tears * Kiiroi Namida DVD Arashi
Arashi Ninomiya Kazunari Nino Photobook

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Friday, February 13, 2009

Baka and her Pabo;

OH MAI GAHD!!!


Once again, I've succumbed to the tears. I cried in the car yesterday, after leaving the mosque. I cried again at ABC coffeeshop at Bukit Merah even though I pretended to be busy with my phone. I didn't eat any dinner since I don't have the mood, not only that, my jaw hurts like hell. Dad tried to cheer me up by asking if I was on a diet. I just nodded since it's easier to agree. He continued by saying how I've lost weight, how my godmum and goddad commented on me being slimmer and who had commented on me being fat. Then he turned to my mum and said how many people commented on me losing weight. Mum's reply, "I don't see any difference." Thanks loads. -_-"

Listened to ipod on the way home, trying to stop the tears from flowing. Besides, another reason to listen to ipod was due to the fact that the radio car was playing Love Songs with Yaz on Class 95 FM and I didn't wanna be more emotional than I already am.

And.....................I cried when I was taking a shower. And this time, it was bad. My eyes felt heavy and I feel like running away, screaming at the top of my lungs, anything, just so I don't have to think bout all the problems I'm facing. It's eating me up. And when I look out of the window, I see nothing but obstacles.

Somehow, year 2009 started off by being too emotional for me to handle. Where is the happiness that I felt in the past years? Where is the joy that makes me anticipate the next day? I've been through too much. Just stop it, please. Please give me strength. I don't wanna be a fool anymore.




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On a happier note, I only had 2 hours of sleep the day before, but somehow, I ended up dreaming of 2PM. Why is it soo much easier to dream of them than of Changmin? Lol. And somehow, Jaybeom oppa ended up being the "main lead" in my dream. Iamsosorrysharonthatheisdatingmeinmydream but dreams are opposite of reality so don't worry!! LOL.

Nessa didn't come to work today. Bet she's planning on how to celebrate Valentine's Day with Minho. LOL. I miss that girl. She made me laugh and smack my head yesterday. LOL. She just found out she had an income mail and so even though we were sitting next to each other, we emailed each other bout random stuff on Minho and Changmin and how we're both married to those two. *I know we're supposed to be working, but a girl gotta have some fun. Hahaha.*

Before lunch, Muthu showed me and Khatijah some video on chefs cooking food really fast. Turns out, they were cooking food that's still alive. Which means, even after cooking, the food ARE STILL ALIVE. They cooked a snake. And even though the whole body have been chopped into pieces, it's still moving!! And I can still see the heart beating!! The multi body parts are still moving as if I'm able to connect them back! Then, they had to cook live fish. Even after slicing off the scales, taking out the intestines, deep-fry the body of the fish, the damn fish is still struggling to breathe!! It's not even dead! It's like, the fish was paralysed after being deep-fried. -_-" And I end up eating fillet fish at McDonald for lunch. And the funny thing was, the judge claimed that if the fish isn't "moving the mouth", the chef will fail in his mission. O_O

Oh, and lunch with Marhamah, Asra and Khatijah makes me go crazy cause they're crazy people. I couldn't eat my food as fast as I usually eat since my jaw still hurts and thus I had to eat something soft and eat it slow. Khatijah was like "I finished one burger and you're still halfway." Hahahahha. Marhamah asked me to buy ice cream since it's soft. -_-" LOL.

Oh oh oh!! After returning from lunch, Sainin gave me a pair of earrings and a charm bracelet. Sooo sweet of her!!! She said that since I love weird, funky earrings, she bought me this really cute earrings. Awwwww. Thanks soo much Sainin!! She's my supervisor, by the way. Hahahahha.

Oh my god!! Celine is soo cute! She smsed me, "Hon, when can I date you for a meal?" Hahahahah. Soon babe!! Sapporo Ramen!!!

Probably meeting my girls for Valentine's Day. We decided to bring our "date" along. Changmin's too busy shopping for the perfect outfit to wear tomorrow. HAHA. That babo!

Gotta go!! Meeting Louis after work. Wooooooo.

P.S. Brunei seems soo far away.



Changmin's one and only baka ♥
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